My grandmother passed away at around 3pm today. She lived to a ripe old age of 80 and died from pancreatic cancer that spread through her whole body.

She was the one who brought me up through my 19+ years of life. She battled through many illnesses in her life, and dearly loved her grandchildren. Her health had took a downturn after my grandfather's death, but she stayed strong for 5 years after he left us.

This departure of my closest family member will always sadden me. How i wish it was just a false alarm, but i know i need to get back to reality. She had taught me so many things; and she will remain as my role model who i will look up to. I regret not spending even more time with her. I wished that she will still be here when i have my own family, but this wish will never be fulfilled.

I will be strong. RIP my beloved grandma.

Thanks for all my friends who stood by me n who expressed their condolences. Now I will standby my family members and help them tide through this. I will be fine.

I have a boyfriend. Just tht he's very shy n only appears in my dreams. But i have yet to see what he looks like.

HAHAHA #joke

I have been lonely the previous sem. I'm better now ^^ i guess thats why 2ne1's lonely stopped getting stuck in my head n i have lesser emo thoughts. I'm back to the old me!!!

Internship is still quite fun. Somehow i'm closer to my collegues than to my other NP interns. Maybe coz i went to client's place w yang zhen ^^

I alr received my interim evaluation. I know wad i'm lousy at. Particularly bad at communication. I feel i somewhat speak like a pai. N i like to talk loudly. Who to blame =.= Blame all the frens who impacted me too much? Hahahahaha. Nah i just dun have a strong character. Damn why didnt i pick up my frens good traits rather than the bad ones. I'm an easily influenced kinda girl :x

I gotta rmb i got 60/80 for interim! I love the part about my efficiency. Hehehehe. YAY

I feel like i have missed out on a lot of fun in life. In this (almost) 19 years of my life, i still have lots i want to do but i havent done before. Theres so many things that i should spend my teenage years doing but i just dun seem to have anybody to go with me.

My birthday is coming. But before that is exams first. Anytime before exams = studying or homework. I guess we all dun have much life. I wanna parteh but i'm not really that kind of party girl rite? Haish. Limits because of my character...

I cant even properly list down what i want to do coz i know i dun have the time to do any...

Well for one i definitely need to get my driving license. Then i want to learn korean. But i also want to learn dancing... Conflicting minds and thoughts... N then theres another issue that i hope for but never for once has it been fulfilled...

I hope for dalmatian comeback!!! I think its sept :)

Well in the meantime, officially mssing you will suffice. ^^




I'm officially missing you~! :')

Missing my friends la! N dalmatian onstage :)

Another super addicting song! :) i think this year is 2ne1 year!!

I think i am distancing away from my old friends. There's some whom
I havent seen in ages, n whom i havent talked to them in ages. I havent even been online long enough to ask them how they are doing. Coz all these are the early sleepers...

I miss them. As much as how technology is so advanced that it is easy to contact them, but i guess nothing beats meeting them face to face. Everytime i type a message i will be thinking whether i am too blunt or have i said sth wrong. This isnt supposed to happen with close frens rite?

I guess i might no longer have sth very common with them... This is so depressing...

Hopefully words will still flow naturally when i meet them... I think its also coz i had been busy n neglected them as well. Maybe i have been too busy making new friends. N i hope i did not forget to keep my old ones. Sometimes i know life forces u to choose one.

I will work hard to make an effort to meet those i care about! Jia yous~

P.S. Ndp tmr!!! :) bluee sector! Aft the outing i know more peeps alr! Hahas.