Gut feel

Its the year of the chicken (rooster)! Today is the 4th day of the new lunar year!~ 

Nowadays my gut feeling quite strong and zhun. It scares me sometimes. Like 初二 when I was playing mahjong, i had a passing thought that I will get a 一条， but I dismissed it and threw away my 二条. And lo and behold, the next turn I got a 一条. Otherwise I could have won that round. 

My gut tells me to play more mahjong, so I have been asking people to play mahjong with me, but they have been rejecting me 0.o And based on 初二 mahjong with the cousins, my luck was not too bad since I hardly manage to game in the past. I only lost like $1.20, very willingly to Yida. But that last round I could have almost won, with 半色 and 满台. Ohwells it wasn't all too bad. 

I still wanna play more though! 

At this rate of my gut feel working its magic, I hope that feeling comes back again when I meet my Mr Right. Then only I know that he is right. And then I can work towards it. For now, I am pretty sure that Mr Right has not appeared. I sincerely hope it happens this year! With me being so tired of being single...

Anyone has intros? Or recommendations to how I can look for the one? Like Tinder or Paktor?! Will NDP work its magic again? Or the surewin situation will be to try all.

Dayum its going to be another hard year. For now lets just pray for 工作顺利， 身体健康， 有缘人再相见 ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

2017 first thoughts

Its officially 2017! And if I dig up my last year's new year resolutions, I am pretty sure I haven't accomplished a single one! 

Acquaintances (aka FB friends and mutual friends) are doing good deeds, going far in their jobs, falling in love, getting married, travelling the world, BFFs... basically embracing their lives at their finest. Meanwhile, sourgrape me will identify myself the most with the lonely memes and #ForeverAlone club. 

Getting more and more pessimistic about life, that I no longer know what I need to continue life with. I need more purpose, and I want that purpose to be my better half, but then again to find my better half I need to get myself out of this fix first. And to get out of this fix I need time. And lots of re-learning to do. And a lot more encouragement and motivation. Which I can't seem to find around. So vicious cycle and back to a square one. 

Not wanting to be this sour, but I guess everyone's lives will spin at different speeds~ People come and go, but I don't seem to cherish them enough and many left me for good. Ohwell, to each their own and may everyone's dreams come true! 

(This is not a suicidal post; its just a rant-ful sourish post, from the no-purpose me)

Maybe I should quit social media, since that's where my source of sourness comes from hmmmm... 

Edit: I realised the only new year resolution I wrote last year was to stop being nagged at, and true enough I still get nagged XD

Placebo yo. Nothing changed. This is really bad.