Me (demoralizing post ahead)

This post is going to be about all my bad points. Feeling insecure and unwanted now. That feeling that you are just the backup, that safety net thats usually not used. 

Ugly

Too tanned

Fat

Lazy

Unmotivated

Procrastinator

Self centred

Distant

Never a giver

Dreamer

Uncaring

Sarcastic

Quiet (introvert)

Unkempt

Loud

Sadistic (at times)

Ignorant

Blabbermouth

Unfeeling

Selfish

Bochup

I will never be someone's exclusive; anyone's one and only. I'll just go and build a great wall around me and not let anyone in... even though i love having people around, but I hardly manage to go beyond acquaintances with most people. I thrive on my friends who pull me out of the wall. But sometimes I wonder if they gave up in the end. I will always be that closed off unmarked territory. 

Feeling lousy with 2 hours of sleep, and work is not helping either 0.o