Am I doing the right thing?

Am I giving too much of myself just for the pleasure of another? Is what I’m doing considered as crossing the line? Do I really want affection in this manner? 

I did draw my limits at least and I did declare the no go things. But are the things that I am currently doing enough? Or would he keep wanting more? He did reassure me that he will keep to his promises of the no go things. But would he? 

I am self doubting myself. Did I really cause myself to be in this mess? Do I really deserve this mess? Is this all I can do? Can I deserve better? 

Sigh. At least I know I have super good self control HAHA. Mind over matter y’know.