Lesson learnt

Disappointed in myself today for not helping people all the way and not saying thank you enough. I failed in being present for everyone and in being thankful for the little things in life. 

Let this be a lesson learnt. I'm going to do things properly next time 💪

Well i'm not talking about my life though. Hahaha. But i still enjoy my life :)

Look around you and you can find out why is life beautiful. To me, simple acts of kindness between random strangers are enough to make me have a good day. And only remember the good; forget about the bad~ 

And i like seeing inter-racial relationships. It's not something i can do, but i really admire those that are in one now. Really salute 👏 I find it an amazing thing that people love others who are different from them. I really have a lot to learn. It's not a very common sight, but its a beautiful sight~ n mixed blood babies are super cute :x 😂

Ohwell. Cheers and better luck to me finding my other half :)

But let me learn how to carry conversations with any guy first... Thanks i know my brain works amazingly weirdly. Thats why i'm different 😆

There's always a reason to smile,

Because life is beautiful~ :')

想恋想疯了

我不知道我的头脑是在想什么。常常都会过渡的思考。一件很简单的事都能想的很复杂。

一旦有男生和我说话，或在网络上跟我聊的比较长，我会很心动。这不是寂寞是什么？ 真的是想恋想疯了。我都快受不了自己了。明明是不喜欢的， 可是我的心可能就太寂寞，很可望能够谈恋爱吧。还有我这个脑，想出一大堆有的没的场景，一点都不真实的东西。

这已经不是第一次了。从我懂事的时候就这样了！哎。。。一定是我读太多故事书所以才会这样！灵活的想象力。 啊哈哈！

可是我和他聊得曼起劲吗 (^_^*)

Mating season?!

Is there like a mating season for humans?! HAHAHAHAA. Coz all the stories about those despo guys hitting on girls are just too funny 😂

Such entertainment~ so first i get entertained by all of lijing's stories and her fair share of weird despo guys. And now i'm being entertained by all the weird matchmaking sessions going on in AWC. The stories are really one of a kind! 

But will there ever be a guy who will like me? Nevermind i should just continue to be entertained by such simple jokes in life~ HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

Single guys i dunno whether i should be telling u to stop or to continue. Stop coz the girls are getting so scared. Continue coz i am having such a ball of time hearing the stories~

Omo this is too funny 😂😂😂

Ideal type

Ah the london and paris stories shall come later. Procrastination to be continued. 

I'm going to do this post on my ideal type of namjachingu first. Yes this is some exclusive information!!! Never before told! 

So here goes. My ideal type for a guy!

1) Taller than me. I am about 163cm so the ideal height is above 170cm :) exceptions can be made but please be taller than 167cm... 

2) Stronger (and bigger) than me. I know i am not the weakling "oohhh!!" and "ahhhh!!" kind of girl, but i still want a guy who can protect me and shelter me. By stronger i don't mean muscles, but at least better stamina and more sporty than me please. That said this requirement isn't a lot too. Oh i hope he is someone who likes to walk coz i like long walks :P

3) Communicates well with me. I prefer if the guy leads the conversation rather than me. And communicating with me proves to be pretty hard too XD By communication I mean verbal communication and not IM. I can IM everyone but i can't talk well with anyone~  

4) High determination and steadfast. Who doesn't like a determined guy, full of drive in everything he does :) By steadfast i don't mean stubborn, but rooted to what he wants to be. I guess this is a bonus since this is becoming so damn rare in Singapore...

5) Looks. Idk if this is the least thing that matters or is the most important thing that matters. I hope that he will be presentable thats all. Pleasing to the eye and not some huge hunk okay. But the heart will always matter the most. Good intentions, good thoughtswith a  good heart will eventually shine through everything and affect the looks as well~ 

Well there's so much unsorted information in my head, but that should be all. They say girls are not visual animals, but girls are humans and humans still tend towards attractiveness. But i can't say that for myself since i am not attractive at all. Dilemma uh? 

I can't differentiate between handsome, good looking, or plain average, but i can definitely differentiate between good and bad looking 😆 

And there's the problem with me. I doubt guys ever see me as a girl, coz i behave more like a guy. Not just in the lack of care for the appearance department, but perhaps the sense of protectiveness over my friends, not screaming and shouting at every little thing, and acting a little too tough for my own good sometimes. Are these reasons why i can't seem to find a man who is less girly and more manly than I am? 

I think i am lackluster in comparison with all my girlfriends. Yes i have image complexities. But i love myself and i hate to cover myself with a whole bunch of lies and phoney acts, so noone will ever see me trying to act as who i am not. I am proud of myself and of my upbringing. And that's why i fail at leaving a good first impression... 

I have faith in humanity, so I shall continue to actively search. I really don't want to be the last one left on the shelf. Nearing 21 already but i have never dated, never been asked out, and never felt the sweetness of love. I hope my dream of marrying and having babies before i reach 30 can still come true... 

BACKKKK!!!

Welcome me back to Earth!!!! 😂

Okays first, overseas trip to London and Paris. Twas major love, super fun, totally enjoyed myself, let my hair down n did the things i have never done before 😉 Of course not anything that betrays my self-respect for my body la! I'm fully intact okay! Nothing lost n nothing gone. HAHA. Seriously i can write about what I did there and where I went to forever. And it'll take hours. Not suitable to be done while lying on the bed prepaing to sleep at 3am~ So i shall leave the story telling for another day. 

Previous post was made at the end of May. So almost 3 months passed since i last blogged coz its end of august now. MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING IN 2 WEEKS TIME!!!! I will be turning 21. AND THATS OLDDDDD. How i wish i was still 19 😂 Then i'll have all the time in the world. Ok not exactly too but whatevers hahaha. 

I hoped that month spent overseas did change me. I can't say anything about the changes myself until someone is able to witness it n tell me about it~ or else it will just be a lie hahas. 

Yes i went there empty handed n i still came back with nothing. If u know what i mean HAHAHAHA. OMG sometimes i just can't stand myself with all the lame jokes i make man =.= 

Oh life before overseas was just slacking around at my job. Hahahaha. N life after going overseas is just slacking around at home. Supposed to be planning my own bday bbq chalet but procrastination will always kick in and i will end up doing something else~

I had a hard time thinking about who i should invite. And that means categorizing which friends are close or good or just acquaintances. I swear its all these categorizations that make me unable to make more new friends easily sia! I have this distorted thinking that the longest lasting friends are best friends and all new friends can never be the best. Really wrong thinking so i am trying hard to make things right. But that doesnt mean that my super long lasting friend is not my best friend~ ^^ Still that guest list is really tough to decide. Coz reality hits me hard that i dun exactly have that many friends... Ouch. 

I shall leave the reflections of my 21 years of life to after my birthday. Tmr i might write about my month long trip.

Shall enjoy the last few days of being 20 now~ HAHA. Good night world! My screwed up body clock pretty much shows how much i miss london actually HAHA.