Monday, July 7, 2014

3 is a good number

3 is the number for a third wheel
3 is the starting number for a group
3 is also the awesome 3rd year i have been volunteering as usher for NDP!

Woots!~ in a sense 3 does describe me this year πŸ˜‚ 

I love my NDP group! Its the best group i have ever had in my 3 years! Or perhaps i have a slightly more different and crazier attitude coz i have let go of a lot of things (aka stereotypes). Well i'm a carefree biatch now! (Y) 

Complain Club 2, although most of you are younger than me, but all of your attitudes are really the top notch and i'm looking forward to learning more from all of you! Lookin forward to Saturdays now!



The before and after duty shot~ that i couldn't manage to upload on insta coz of cropping issues and my short term memory (still struggling real hard to remember everyone's names...)

Friday, March 21, 2014

Another article that is ME!

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/03/how-to-love-a-girl-who-doesnt-know-how-to-be-loved/

ALL OF THOSE POINTS INSIDE THIS ARTICLE ARE JUST WHAT I AM. But when will Mr Patient and Understanding come along? 

Over practical

http://www.humanmetrics.com/personality/intj

So i did this personality test n this is the result i got: introverted, intuitive, thinking, judging

Definitely introverted 😁 this is for all to see. Hahaha. I am mainly introverted and sometimes, only during special occasions, i am extroverted. N special occasions meaning certain events or whatnot. Then again all i do in the moments of extrovertness is to be hyper and talk nonsense. I dun think this hardly counts... 

"Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.
This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness."

N 1 very right thing about this test is the reason why i can't find a bf. I can't do small talk and i can't flirt! (I am quite patient though) Head over heart everytime; practicality outweighs everything. I sometimes dun get why some stuff can't be more straightforward. Impassive and private. Definitely me. Yeah n i do love to make sense of things. And so i have wonderfully managed to analyse people based on their star signs~ Well i only know gemini, leo, virgo the best coz majority of my friends n family belong here πŸ˜‚

"Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications."

This paragraph is about how my brain actually deciphers information about body language and words. A very long process, all governed by the head n not the heart. Seems tedious, no? I sometimes blame the lack of female hormones, but it might actually be in my character after all. 

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Thursday, February 20, 2014

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Soooo during awc agm today, Gee randomly asked me about grad trips after exams. So i told her i'm going taiwan. N it so happens that she's going to taiwan with alvin and 3 other friends. N that group consists of 2 couples n 1 single guy. Such a coincidence huh! Their tour timings overlap ours 😱 and gee n alvin will be taking the same jetstar flight back with us. 

I still marvel at how such coincidences form. Why so qiao! 

Looking forward to going taiwan now! New friends and new experiences! Grad trips ftw!~ 

Monday, January 27, 2014

A Dream

So I dreamt a wonderful dream this morning. It was about these 2 random but super gentlemanly guys 😍 

Ok both of them aren't the most handsome or the most perfect, but in thos dream they were so gentlemanly that i'm totally in awe. N i didn't recognise their faces so its not someone i know... I only vaguely remember 1 of them has a pimply face while the other, better looking but i really dun rmb the face :x

The dream started off with me taking a different route on the way home from school. I happened to need to take an elevator to another bus stop. So these 2 guys were standing behind me in the crowded lift and they told me that they are going to open my backpack to return some things they owed me. I said ok and they started stuffing idk what stuff in, I couldn't turn back coz the lift was too crowded. N they both talked quite loudly and also talked to some other people in the lift that they knew. I was getting a little bit pissed coz how can random strangers stuff things into my bag?! 

After alighting the lift then they told me where did we meet before. I was like hmmm i think i rmb them being in this same lift when i went there after some camp. I then opened my bag and saw what they put in. It was some colourful toy i can't really rmb what it was. I was thinking that i lent them some tissue n they were nice enough to remember to return it after ages. (Not too sure coz its just my analogy) 

We 3 chatted a lot about random things and 1 of the guys was so funny making lots of jokes. Then we reached a long flight of stairs leading down to the bus stop and they said they will go first. So i slowly took the stairs, tripping here n there, being the typical accident prone me. They finally came up to where i was after seeing me trip so many times and asked me if i needed help. The pimply guy offered to piggyback me n so i climbed on with the help of his friend. At the bus stop, the 2 of them continued making jokes while waiting for the bus, and 1 guy pointed out that the side of the kerb will remind me of him, coz its his initial. I think i heard that he had an initial J. 

And then i woke up πŸ˜’ Sigh i never knew their name n i can't really rmb their face either... Who knows both of them might be my future bfs 😝

N i think i did dream of them a long time ago... At the same lift. The lift that is not the blk where i study at. N don't the long flight of stairs resemble that of ntu... Hmmmmmmm. 

Maybe my true love is from another course and is studying at ntu now πŸ˜‚ if this dream was really a sign... 

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Let it go





"Let it go, let it go,
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go,
Turn my back and slam the door
Here i am, and here i'll stay
Let it go, let it go,
The cold never bothered me anyway!"

Best song ever of the year by Disney Animations. Totally addicted to this and the various editions in different languages are just as nice.

I guess many people are able to relate to this song thats why. It is important to let go of all the bad feelings, "to test the limits and breakthrough." Let go of any miserable past, and live a new life. Miserable pasts include bad relationships with people in general. (This is to my friends who have had an unhappy past and are still brooding over it)

"No right no wrong, no rules for me, i'm free~" Be free from the expectations of others. After all, the life is yours and you should be living it yourself, in the best way possible. But of course, never bring yourself down and break all the rules that can get you into trouble.

I think one important thing to let go is the impressions that you think that others have of you. You can't stop what others think, but definitely you must stop all the negative impressions you have of yourself. It's the very thing that can bring you down, the same way as how positive impressions bring you up.

And a note to myself: let go of your expectations. Stop creating those useless scenarios in your head, and start communicating properly. Don't let such things cloud your mind. Talk boldly, laugh loudly, live happily. Express your emotions, and let go of what people think of you. Smile and move on! Stop caring so much! It's time to be a little more reckless.