Not just looks on the surface

When everyone says that this so and so person is handsome or pretty, I will be quite skeptical and be like ermmm ok la. Meaning, to me, he just doesn't interest me at all. Maybe thats why I will always choose dramas for the plot and less for the actors. But then again I hardly watch dramas. Other than whatever appears on tv. Somehow it just doesn't have the same effect on me. 

For me, I will only think that a person is handsome because of their talents. I am a sucker for talents. Anyone who knows more than what they specialise in, I will be like (☆_☆) Say Kim Soo Hyun, he is super goodlooking because in dream high he can act AND sing. And his voice is so awesome thats why. And after that I didn't watch his dramas because there's no more singing involved HAHA. 

As for Block B, its because Zico not only raps, but he can sing, compose, write music, be a leader of Block B, do variety shows... Totally all sorts of daebak things. A perfect idol ❤️ Plus, he is super daring in experimenting and exploring new styles :) 

U-kwon... I fell in love with his voice. He is known to be a dancer for Block B, but his voice is just perfect. He is good with his facial expressions which really adds colour to his song/dance. And most importantly, that eye smile *faints* 

For taiwanese bands, I love their singing more than their looks. Its all for the songs and their voices. 

 I guess my brain is just wired really differently. Or my tastes are not so strong hmm...

I wonder what happens if I am drunk

Because being drunk will make people do stupid things, so i wonder what sorts of stupid things will i do. I haven't ever been drunk, and neither do I wanna get drunk, but just being curious about what I will be like. 

For those usually hyperactive people, being drunk seems to make them drowsy and not hyperactive anymore. Quiet people will generally become more noisy. 

Since I am kinda in between I wonder what will happen. I think I will be asking all sorts of insensitive feeling questions like whether they still like who and who. Maybe its just me who kaypo

Think too much

Issit I am over-excited about what is yet to be? Damnz. No good. I have go control myself D: 

But its fun to talk to them guys teehee. Pokemon go bonds people ok! And snapchat does too. Or issit snorlax makes them jelly hmmmm. 

Gamer blood in me. More than any drama blood. Reasons why I can stick to a game even when everyone is quitting. Why can't I persevere as much for my work. After all work is what is feeding me right. 

Oh well if there are pokemon go dates, I will gladly go sia! Need a boyfriend. And need to game while I am at it. Nerdy max. :S

Lets see if any dates come true with my busy schedules and all~ 

On a side note: 4 days to Japan!!!! #excitez

Mud's last day

Today (assuming it is still 31 August since I am still awake) is Ahmad's last day with BCO... Quite sad that he's leaving. Although its for a mandatory thing since he is going to serve the country. 

Though the deliverables which he does are not exactly perfect, but he really has a super good heart and very easy-going with everyone in the team. Forever helping me with whatever I ask him to do because I hate keying in things. And always chatting with me, causing me to have no time to finish my work (oops). Yes I should totally cut down on my IM usage. 

Oh well Ahmad has been like my best intern friend since I tell him all sorts of gossip and nonsense. Like really can talk to him nonstop and disturb him a lot. But then again, Charmaine is also just as daebak. 

And today after giving him his present, he was so touched that he almost cried. So sweet sia. And its a longchamp bag. And when AAS saw the paper bag, their reactions were all like WAHHHH IS THAT REAL. And this Ahmad have to go and spoil the moment by sneaking off to the fridge to get the Royce chocolates he bought. Wanted to see him cry sia. 

And pokemon hunting is fun as usual. HAHA. 

"Never hunt alone; pokemon hunting is always better with someone around" - Annonymous (aka me) 

"Everyone has their ideal type"

The 2 girls from another NDP group who were trying so hard to matchmake me and to find a boyfriend amongst all the army guys there... (Yes I am at the age to be married off so I should get a boyfriend first -_-)

So they kept pestering me for my ideal type. And they kept saying that everyone will have their own ideal type. Because an ideal type can just be a simple trait like specs or age group. And i insisted that I don't have an ideal type. Mainly because I wanna keep my options open. 

Here goes:

- Aged between +10 and -2

- Taller than me

- Tanned (no 白斩鸡）

- Size bigger than me (in order to not make me look fat)

- Intellectual (so usually wears specs)

- If possible, from a UG (especially a UG guy who loved his cca and participated in  events etc)

- Eye smile is a huge plus (^.^) (I realised from my preferences of idols, they mostly have a really cute eye smile)

Am I pushing it? HAHAHAHA. Given that I'm 163cm, and Singapore guys average at 165cm... And 170cm sometimes look short beside me. 

And it also seems my pool is quite small, so by right it shouldn't be that hard? Whatevs. Let's just keep waiting~ 

Teehee

The girl who is so far away from love

http://thoughtcatalog.com/ashley-jones/2016/04/to-the-girls-who-havent-found-love/

Absolutely spoken from my heart. 

Guys leave me wondering; am I so damn undateable that noone will want to see me as a possible life partner? Anything rather than just a normal friend? 

I know my limits, and I know I am far from being the ideal type of anyone. In fact, I might be suffering from some inferiority complex, where I know I will never be as good as anyone out there. 

New media makes people think too much about those perfect looking exteriors, with an equally matching charismatic charecter. But me, the ordinary me, the girl that slowly fades away in the minds of others, will never ever be that. I doubt anyone will take a second glance at me. I don't believe that there is anyone who will look at me and go: "hey is this the girl I have been looking for my whole life". Because everything you see about me will never meet any expectations of an ideal type of yours. 

Another reminder to myself: the single and available guys are dwindling at this age. So many have found their life partners, prospectives, hopefullys... While I hardly have any crushes, still dreaming and waiting for the right one to come. 

I don't ask for a lot. Just someone who is better than me; coz I know I am lacking in so much. I am not hoping for some handsome idol-like guy, not a six pack buff guy. I just need a normal dependable guy, someone who can give me the love and hugs that I have missed this past 24 years...

Where art thou, future boyfie?

If i have to go for matchmaking...

Imagining the day that I have to go for matchmaking sessions...

Random guy: so what's your hobby?

Me: ermmm i like to sleep and eat? 

Seriously how does this even sound like a hobby. Dealing with people fail. 

Hais. 

So what do I like to do? Stay at home and nua in front of the tv? Such an ideal date.