Primary school

I dreamt of Pei Hwa, my primary school friend. Idk why but I dreamt that she is working in tax? Its been ages since I last saw her. We only met once coincidentally on bus 74, when i was Poly 1 or 2. Coz she was studying at NJC. Guess that was the first and last time I saw her after primary school. 

I guess I do miss primary school days. Especially being a brownie too. Wonder how my teachers are doing. Will always remember my P2 form teacher, Ms Alberque. Coz she was the one who helped to punish my bullies. And she really is a nice teacher who is caring towards her students. Margaret Tay my P6 form teacher, who retired after teaching my class. The one who bought dates to class and noone ate it except me. #startofbeinggreedy Although I used to hate her (well who doesn't hate the person giving you the most homework), but she is nice compared to 6C's form teacher. And she is my brownie teacher who taught me so much about guiding. I remember tying knots to the chair legs in class. And the following year, She was driving this car alongside me with my primary school principal, while I was walking home from Cai Er's house. She remembers me and both of them said hi to me! #touched 

But me being me I am shy and not outgoing. So I kinda resented the fact that the teachers remember me. Ohwell some teachers I wished they remember me, but those are often the ones who are popular teachers so they have loads of students. 

Ah schooling days. Really miss those days :')

Secrets

This post won't be divulging any secrets. Well at least not my secrets. HAHA.

Some things are better kept unknown, especially if you know that it can ruin a person's reputation, and how everyone will eventually look at the person when the secret is made known. People can be very judgemental, and pounce on the earliest chance to expose and defame the person. I think I am gifted in the sense that I can see pass a person's facade, and usually what made them. I like to know a person's past, how it affects the present, and how the future might be like. What makes a person tick, what life had put them through. I tend to think that everyone has a reason why they are the way they are, and besides, there is a reason behind everything. People aren't just bitchy for a reason. There is something that they need, and the person is unable to cope with it, henceforth putting through expectations to those around them, as a form of venting frustrations.

Back to secrets. I admit I have my own ways of stalking people. (Oops) but nothing beats actually talking to the person directly and asking straight up what you want to know. I can see into your past, and know what are your likes and dislikes. I listen to what the people around knows about you, matches them to what I already know, and derive at my own conclusions of why you are behaving in certain ways and your insecurities. With all the advancement of social media, it's really hard to keep a completely clean record of all that you have been through. (Unless you are me, relatively you don't have much of a thing to pick on hehe). Everything is nice on the outside and may not be that fantastic on the inside.

And the judgements. Secrets are kept because humans are afraid of people using their exposed disadvantages to place incorrect judgements on themselves. Feed them an information not to your favour, and everything that you do wrongly will be because you are so and so. And then these incorrect judgements will stick with you wherever you go. It's like that and it will be hard to shake off.

Another note to self: when I don't judge, doesn't mean others will not judge too. So I better keep some things to myself... Like erm partner's son because I just realised he may not like the whole world knowing that he is here because of certain special connections. Ahhhh it's bad when you know things and you cannot expose them :(

That's why it always sucks to keep secrets.

Sexting

http://www.artparasites.com/meet-me-offline-because-sexting-doesnt-turn-me-on-like-the-sound-of-your-voice/

Good read! 

Note to self, totally. 

I always get carried away with what happens online through instant messaging, and I will forget how I am supposed to talk to people. In real life. And more often than not, I can't speak coherent sentences. I can't make myself appeal to the opposite person, as much as my witty comments online can. I blabber nonsense, rather than the short and impactful messages I sent. 

If I have a boyfriend, I am definitely trying to go offline. Meet first, text later. At least I will not forget how well I hit off with the person physically. 

My new year resolution should be...

STOP GETTING NAGGED AT. 

At home kena nag. At work also kena nag. Everyday kena nag. Until I also immune liao la. Thats why its a vicious neverending cycle...

BUCK UP PLEASE

Year 2016!

Goodbye 2015 and hello 2016!! 

Actually, I don't really remembered what I did the whole year. Feels sooooo distant. I worked, I travelled, I studied, I got my first bonus, I made lots of new friends, I participated in activities. Yeah. I guess that's about all? HAHAHAHA. How uninteresting. 

Lets just do a shoutout to the new people I met then. To the several interns that came and went this year, hope I managed to help you in your first official workplace! To the NDP friends, I miss all the fun times together trying to handle the crowd!! Hope we still can gather and create nonsense pairings again! To my SQP friends, nice to know you and thank you for your guidance! To my new colleagues, 多多指教 and thank you for your patience with me! 

Looking forward to what year 2016 will bring! Hopefully a boyfriend AHAHAHAAHHAA. This is the only thing that is dependent on fate. Everything else will have to be my own ability, so I will have to keep working hard to excel!