Too hard too strong

Sorry I came on as too fast too hard and too strong 😞
I just wanted to give you a surprise because you had been feeling lousy at work, and I thought it will help. I just did some random googling and found out where you would appear, but once I saw the helplessness and disappointment in your eyes, I knew it was a wrong decision already.

Sigh I promise I will never ever do this again :(

Feeling super guilty, full of reproach, disappointed with myself, and wondering what the future holds. Relationships are really not a bed of roses; I am still figuring out myself. And with my clingy insecurity, its really really bad for both of us.

I am scared...

I’m trying to be normal, but its so hard after a little disagreement...