25/11/17

Fastest game ever. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Shit did i just accepted too quickly. Totally no sense of surprise or whatnot. CHEY. But then again I’m not following the usual trend of how things are supposed to go. Touchy touchy guy sia this oneeee. Non-existent boobs also want, belly fats also want. Still rub my calves and feet some more. 

Hopefully my first will be my last too (:

太感动了

感动到快哭了啦！

Ryan <3

今天在USS玩了一整天，晚上还一起去唱K！现在已过了12了。可是搭不到德士，价钱也好贵。我只是和Ryan诉苦，他还真的来Bugis+载我。

原来恋爱是这种滋味、太幸福了！

我确定我的选择是对的。虽然才短短的那一两个礼拜，我们以算是走的挺密切了、关系很好。重要的是，他很疼我，也看得出来的他真的喜欢我。我也是!

可是我还得克服那长相不是全部，人一定不能完美...

DILEMMA

Life’s biggest dilemma (at least for now):

SHOULD I ASK A GUY OUT FOR DINNER?

HAHAHAHAHAHA 

I AM SUCH A FASTGAME ASSHOLE. 

But eh guys you all can buck up not. Really so scared of rejection ah? I swear I would have asked a whole bunch of people out for lunch/dinner if I had wanted to. To me, desperate times calls for desperate measures, especially for this dinner-less girl with no homecooked food :(

Or why not can you invite me to eat at your house? I promise I will be good. I’ll be the nicest and most pleasant ever girl, the super supportive plate cleaner and dish finisher. 

The way into a guy’s heart is really food. Especially food that is as good as their own mum’s cooking~

Wrote this on 20 November, the night before my first date.
And yes I highkey hinted that I am dinner-less on Tuesday morning so he agreed to go out with me for dinner~ 

First official date

I scored myself my first official date~ (*^^*)

As usual my expectations never ever matched reality, but at least it wasn’t awkward. I forgot 171 is really not very tall HAHAHAHA. Me being me is sometimes too used to doing some things and I’m glad he accepted. 

Someone fill me in on what to or not to do on the first date... I had shared food with him, brushed past his arms so many times, sat so close to him too.

And yes he does like me. I can tell HAHAHAHA. -mind reader here- I think I do too... 

Feeling so bashful now coz its my first ever date. And he tells me I dont look like I have never dated before. Eh but means what. I look damn confident issit. 

While on the escalator he told me he will send me home next time. My face really froze with happiness too. Xiao touched sia. I’m usually the one who is always taking care of my friends. It does feel good that someone is taking care of me in return~

Xiao happy todayyyy

Thanks Ryannnnn!

I finally realised why I am single

Hi guys,

I finally realised why I am single! 

(But realising a fact doesn't mean I am anymore closer to getting attached)

There goes...

I get friendzoned by them! 

(Pretty sure I didn't friendzone them)

*slow claps for myself*

-fade out-

My Bane

Regardless of how well I keep my guard, how high my defences are stacked, and how hard I try to avoid them, my biggest bane is that I am too easily bought over by glib tongues and easily trusting of them. 

Especially when it comes to guys 0.o

I guess this reflects my desparate desires. For finances and friendships, I manage to avoid glib salesmen/friends very well. But if it comes to relationships, I just can't. As long as I am remotely even able to communicate with a person, then I will just go all out and end up kinda falling for them. 

-Which is why I end up falling for people I meet online and hardly for those I meet IRL-

-Everyone I liked are formed through lengthy (and late night) whatsapp/msn convos- 

Even when things do not work out all the time. And its actually the guy who wants to achieve some other motive other than actually being in a long term relationship with me. 

Am I even wanted by any of them? But then again there's no harm trying too? A relationship is formed only when both parties have something to take away from it at he end of the day. Am I even able to give anything? Is he able to give me that TLC and spend time with me? 

I swear this is harder than any exams out there -rolls eyes-

Self reminder: DO NOT let any guys cheat you to bed or play with your heart (＞人＜;)

Naggy

Parents nagging at me again 0.o

Over finding a boyfriend. HAHAHAHAHA. 

Ohwell I have a secret life y'know. Not like i'm not talking to any guys. -cough- 

If i get hitched then ITS GONNA BE A HUGE SURPRISE HOHO. 

I have that "I am not in love" face. But maybe secretly I am~ #justsayin

 I am a wood, expressionless with only joy. I don't confide in anyone so noone will ever know. This blog is still my best confidant. Anything else I will just consult myself because I don't need others to judge me and force upon their opinions on me. (I am not erica) #lifedecisions wont be that rash coz I am a rather rational person anyways. 

Now my aim is just to get a bf LOL.