I am a boring person

Enough said.

Because I laugh too loud?!

WTH so my parents are telling me not to watch videos or shows just because i laugh too loud? What in the world is this... Seriously what's wrong with laughing loudly man! I doubt i'm disrupting any neighbours. I'm just disturbing my parents from watching their own show =.=

I know it's not a very girly thing to do but who cares. I'm at home and i have the right to laugh all I want. Don't they understand that laughter is a form of release. N i hardly laugh outside! 😡😡

Just because i'm studying in the living room and using the desktop and watching tv, doesn't mean i'm not studying. I know my limits and i know when i need to do what i need to do. They should instead be more concerned about what my sister is doing man. Just because she hides in the room away from TV, doesn't mean she's studying. Her earphones are plugged into her laptop and she's watching videos and fb-ing and MSN-ing...

I have nothing to hide while she has loads of stuff to hide! Damn. They should start diverting their attention away from me and start opening their eyes to what my sis is doing.

I kind of can't wait till I move to my sengkang house, where i get my own room where i can hide in there all i want. Coz now i've got to share and there just ain't any space for me.

Memories

Suddenly thought of the time where a few of us hid inside the toilet to cry during Guides in Sec3. One of the kind seniors told us off during drill. N peck hui later went into the toilet to cry. I sensed something wrong, so when drill started, i asked for permission to look for her. N she was there, sitting there n crying with another senior (i think chanel) beside her.

I don't really remember what happened in the toilet, but i soon started crying after trying to comfort her. And later on, cai er n isabelle came in n we all were there crying. I think other seniors (Romaine i think) also came in later and started crying with us.

Okay cry here cry there, but i only vaguely remember that it was because of the pressure that our sec4 seniors put on us. Just coz we were stepping up the following year and we were not good enough. That should be the reasons for the harsh words. But no hatred was developed after this incident coz things were all ironed out later.

I really miss the Guides days. Now there's no more camps for me to go too because i dunno the juniors anymore. CCA was tough, but it was fun too. I remember how we did push-ups on the road, the camps and the nightwalks, the drill sessions and PT sessions. And of course the unforgettable seniors and juniors i have met :')

I bet we all turned awkward because we hardly contact each other anymore. We're getting so busy with life nowadays... Facebook ain't helping me to get closer anyways. It just updates me on what's going on in their lives. More like parallel lines than intersecting lines. But damn we ain't going to organise any meetups soon either. Same way as how 4A used to have gazillions of outings the year after we graduated n then slowly dwindled to nothing 2 years on. That's life.

I'm still envious of people who really form the kind of lasting relationships with a whole bunch of ppl. For me, its just a smattering of individual good friends (who sometimes know each other), and which totals to a digit countable on my fingers :') yeah something's definitely wrong with me i guess.

Dalmatian Officially Missing You

Yeah this is the ❤❤❤ because it's Dalmatian 😍😍 poor Dalmatian they're underrated in Korea... But they're still 👍👍
My favourite version of Officially Missing You 😁

Geeks officially missing you

Nice song!!! But it's coz i like Officially Missing You a lot. Ever since Dalmatian sang it when they debuted 😍
N there's Block B's zico n P.O inside 😁

Life!

Everytime I see something amazing or depressing, thats the one word that comes to my mind anyway. Pretty much summarises all the good and bad happening to this world~

But i use it more in the context that life's unfair, move on and don't forget to celebrate it~ so i don't think i am jealous of the good things happening to my friends. (especially those who are in a relationship, and whom i think they WILL get married LOL. Ok i think too much ^^) but life is interesting, surprising and wonderful as it is.

AND i bet my sis IS really in a relationship with Grayson~ all those SMSing,MSNing and whatsapping practically 24/7 with him is an obvious enough hint. And the fact that she pretty much goes out with him most of the time makes it just even more obvious. I confirmed it through the message "love you good nites" when my sis asked me to unplug her phone. (definitely not trying to invade ppl's privacy) I haven't been there done that but doesn't mean i don't know how to read the signs (and messages kyahaha).

Well, my sister doesn't know that i know but she needs to thank me. I haven't told my parents anything about him, just saying that she goes out with friends. And if my mum ask which friend i would just say idk which. Well i really don't know which but i also can't be bothered about the work that follows thereafter the question should i really know the answer. HEHE. AND she might be grounded should they know she's in a relationship and her grades are slipping~ WAHAHA. I'm the sucha thoughtful sister.

Now comes the question. Should i really ask her whether she and grayson is really together??? I'm shy i don't like asking such personal questions...

Anyways, LIVE LIFE AND LOVE LIFE ^^

P.S. I still havent got round to doing my fav quotes column 😪

Beating about the bush

Don't understand why some people just can't go straight to the point sometimes. That never fails to make me lose trust in a person. Yes i'm slower than most and always take a longer time to get the intended meaning of one, and thats why i hate it when people expect me to guess what is it you're hinting at.

I have had too many bad experiences where i believe too easily and end up getting cheated (well monetarily not my poor heart that suffers). So i always get my guard waaay high up. Once bitten twice shy, and i'm never the kind to get cheated in a similar way twice. I'm gullible, not stupid.

To those people whom i barely know: stop trying to persuade me into certain things. I know i'm nice but that's not the way you should be going about doing things. Don't make me guess your ulterior motive. Perhaps if you downright laid the facts proper i could have trusted you. Well, i shall do what i do best and start avoiding and ignoring.

I always try my best to continue a conversation, and it's a feat for me to carry it on or even initiate one. I ain't genuinely interested in many things and i always take so much effort to try to converse properly. (I kinda sound autistic but i'm not and it's a totally different topic here) I admit i'm sorry if i ever ignored anyone accidentally. It's bloody hell because of people trying to sell something or promote something which is why i tend not to trust people. I'm a bit old to be worrying about kidnappers, but i still do have thoughts of being abducted. And because i know that i can't handle certain matters in person as well as i can behind a computer or a phone, which is why i reject (sometimes not so nicely) people whom i hardly know who ask me to meetup.

My trust doesn't come that easily, especially in sweet talking dudes who approach me to buy some stupid insurance or whatnot. I have enough of those nonsense, all the insurance, MLM and business partners talk. It's not for a student like me. Don't make me become the bane of sales promoters; the one who doesn't listen, who's rude and totally irritated with that permanent scowl on the face.

Same goes to the weird ladies who are trying to pull me into going to your church. I don't have anything against christainity but you don't need to actively try to make me a christian. Please have some respect for other religions even when i don't have one. Well, at least i handle these weird ladies better than those honey spitting salesmen.