My last weekend holiday-ing

So my last weekend of holidays is approaching soon... Coz i'm starting work on Monday! Egg-cited but somehow sad that this marks the end of my holidays... Which is also the last ever holiday I will have in my life T_T

I hope I can adapt well to the environment, stay in a job for that long without losing interest. Seriously idk when I will ever lose interest in anything... Although I know I definitely can persevere through anything, but I have never worked for a period of more than 9 months and I get bored really easily... :/ 

At least 1 thing I know for sure is that my colleagues are nice and friendly. I guess this would make up for any inadequacies in the job~ 

I am just lucky to even get the job and its all thanks to Sook Yee 😍 HEAPS OF THANK YOU TO MY EX-COLLEAGUE FOR LOVING ME SO MUCH AS AN INTERN. N for putting in all the good words such that I became hired. I can't be anymore grateful to have found such a good and attractive job~ 

The bad thing about a job: I can't play Dance Up as much anymore T-T 

I will miss my one and only love Kuam a lot... As well as all my lovely lil guildies Kris, Fel, Jia, all of them. I will miss bullying Rey kor and Uncle Adam! My position as team matters have really made me so close with the members~ Le sigh why are good memories often so short... 

But seriously at age 22 why am I still taking an online game so seriously? Oh well there are age 23 ppl in there, n Rey is 1 such person who is embarrassed to admit he's playing the game in real life 🙊 HAHAHA the interesting things about life 😏 

Don't let me get started on how there's a reason behind everything... An alarming trend which I have spotted in the game. People in there are plagued with troubles. There are so many issues in real life that they can't handle. Backstabbing, betrayal, bullying, the oh-so-common heartbreak, the broken family, etc. The list is endless. And these are the people who enter the game to be lost in virtual reality. To find a new replacement for someone they lost. To make friends who seem to never let them down. 

And there's people like me and Kuam, who wishes there is peace in the humankind. Who tries to dissuade people from getting into a fight. Who tries to let them see its meaningless to go to war with someone you don't actually know. Yes the reality out there is cruel, but you don't need to start bringing your gangs online right. 

That's why game developers always earn so much. Precisely coz of the ppl who tries to find themself through the game, splurging on virtual items, relationships, and social interactions. 

And this does make me feel like becoming a counsellor so I can help those problem teens... A virtual counsellor does sound like a good thing in all games uh. ^^

Split personality

Hanging out with all the younger ones have literally made me their age 😂

My sarcasm and suan-ing skills have improved by leaps and bounds, be it for NDP or in Dance Up. Idk why but i have very suddenly let go of a lot of things that once mattered a lot to me. 

I no longer feel awkward to talk about or even suan others about certain stuff ie relationships. Perhaps the major factor that made me put down this burden is coz of my sis. 

I feel like i am back in sec 4, with the juniors calling ahma. Those were the days i really connected on a different level. I'm feeling it again now during NDP, where i am usually the oldest. And when playing dance up too, coz that game is totally plagued with xmm and xdd of all varying ages and backgrounds... 

Conclusion: i don't belong to the 22 age group, and i might be a gemini since i have 2 faces 😂 Hyper crazy blurr sotong versus serious strict naggy overachiever

3 is a good number

3 is the number for a third wheel

3 is the starting number for a group

3 is also the awesome 3rd year i have been volunteering as usher for NDP!

Woots!~ in a sense 3 does describe me this year 😂 

I love my NDP group! Its the best group i have ever had in my 3 years! Or perhaps i have a slightly more different and crazier attitude coz i have let go of a lot of things (aka stereotypes). Well i'm a carefree biatch now! (Y) 

Complain Club 2, although most of you are younger than me, but all of your attitudes are really the top notch and i'm looking forward to learning more from all of you! Lookin forward to Saturdays now!

The before and after duty shot~ that i couldn't manage to upload on insta coz of cropping issues and my short term memory (still struggling real hard to remember everyone's names...)

Another article that is ME!

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/03/how-to-love-a-girl-who-doesnt-know-how-to-be-loved/

ALL OF THOSE POINTS INSIDE THIS ARTICLE ARE JUST WHAT I AM. But when will Mr Patient and Understanding come along? 

Over practical

http://www.humanmetrics.com/personality/intj

So i did this personality test n this is the result i got: introverted, intuitive, thinking, judging

Definitely introverted 😁 this is for all to see. Hahaha. I am mainly introverted and sometimes, only during special occasions, i am extroverted. N special occasions meaning certain events or whatnot. Then again all i do in the moments of extrovertness is to be hyper and talk nonsense. I dun think this hardly counts... 

"Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness."

N 1 very right thing about this test is the reason why i can't find a bf. I can't do small talk and i can't flirt! (I am quite patient though) Head over heart everytime; practicality outweighs everything. I sometimes dun get why some stuff can't be more straightforward. Impassive and private. Definitely me. Yeah n i do love to make sense of things. And so i have wonderfully managed to analyse people based on their star signs~ Well i only know gemini, leo, virgo the best coz majority of my friends n family belong here 😂

"Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications."

This paragraph is about how my brain actually deciphers information about body language and words. A very long process, all governed by the head n not the heart. Seems tedious, no? I sometimes blame the lack of female hormones, but it might actually be in my character after all. 

Overthinker

http://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2014/03/18-struggles-only-over-thinkers-will-understand/

So many of this applies to me 😱😱😱

So i am an overthinker n a little too paranoid sometimes...

美丽的巧合

Soooo during awc agm today, Gee randomly asked me about grad trips after exams. So i told her i'm going taiwan. N it so happens that she's going to taiwan with alvin and 3 other friends. N that group consists of 2 couples n 1 single guy. Such a coincidence huh! Their tour timings overlap ours 😱 and gee n alvin will be taking the same jetstar flight back with us. 

I still marvel at how such coincidences form. Why so qiao! 

Looking forward to going taiwan now! New friends and new experiences! Grad trips ftw!~