Graduation Blues

CONGRATS ALL OF US WE HAVE OFFICIALLY GRADUATED FROM NGEE ANN!

The grad ceremony n grad nite has whizzed passed oh so quickly already. Really, there were so many bittersweet memories that we have encountered in our 3 years of poly life.

I will always remember the me in Year 1, as usual feeling unknown to my surroudings, but with luck being together with people i know in the camps and in my classes. But usually, the first years in schools often consists of people who slowly drift apart, n more closer friendships are forged with others. Even until the point where a clique of your own was formed, the opportunities to continue befriending everyone else still continues.

As we sat down at Harry's at Holland V last night after the Grad Nite, i realised that most of these people there did not exactly start with me from Year 1 Sem 1. In fact, i only knew them better because they are the friends of my friends, who kinda drifted apart from them n somehow we all ended together here. We may not have enjoyed many clique outings together, but i certainly look forward to the ones which will be planned. (aka sabo-ing me to be the planner)

Nothing bad happened at grad ceremony (other than the embarrassing fact that i looked grouchy in the video coz i didn't smile after taking my "cert"), and it was all fun and joy, taking photos together with close friends and just friends~ even cai er came down to NP to celebrate my graduation. Sorry that i neglected her because i was still busy taking photos with whoever was left in the CC. Dinner together with cai er and my family at MOF after that. Really my bestest friend of 13 years and counting <3

Ytd was the Grad Nite 2012, held at Alumni Clubhouse. I guess the place wasn't that much of an issue for me, but the food was really terrible n the drinks were too. But thank you the organisers for all the fun games, awesome performances and awkward emcee speeches~

And definitely a big thank you to the lecturers and tutors who have taught us. Even though some of your teaching methods may not be approved by all, but we still know in our hearts your passion for teaching and your care and concern for us students~ Even though you may not remember the less significant us, n even though i can't remember your names nor which modules u have taught us, but still thank you <3

And then to all my friends out there, thank you all of you! As i told Rachelle, I may not remember all those nicknames u have "bestowed" upon me, but i will definitely respond to it. You have been part of my blissful 3 years in NP, my beloved project group members and study buddie (slacktime/playime buddies too). I believe 10 years down the road, you will really become what you want to be.

For now, we have to part ways (sadly enough). Guys gotta do their mandatory NS (there goes all my guy friends) n girls gotta continue their studies or work, albeit overseas or in local unis or local private unis (bye my good friends all going to different places from me 😢😭). It's gonna be me, alone with myself, and looking forward to the new peeps i gonna meet in future!

I won't forget all of you! We will stay in touch and meet up soon~ As usual, the future may be uncertain but as long as there's a will, there will be a way!~

Miss you all peeps from NP!

graduation day?

Graduation ceremony is coming soon!! On 22 may!~

I think graduation day would be funny. My 3 rumoured boyfriends along with the respective batches of friends who created the rumours will be there~ HAHAHA It's still quite funny why they like to create rumours for me. N yes i will conveniently avoid these ppl aft the rumours =.= and they will too~

Graduation day is gonna be a blast still!! Looking forward to it!

P.S. so many of the ppl i know have graduated with a diploma with merit. Zai max! Grats n i spent about 1 hour to get over my shock, disappointment in myself, n how bloody smart they are even if they never claimed it. 1 hr is really a lot since i dun stay feeling bad for long. Oh n along with the 2 other ppl i know that got the lee kuan yew award, grats! All of you freaking smart asses who in a way had done MF proud~

love?

I have been reading people's emotions from their eyes. I finally realised that true love is not a fictional thing; it does exists. But just that it may not always be the sweetest ever thing everyday.

I have seen the love that my father has for my mother in his eyes, when he was departing alone for a company trip for a week. He had touched my mother's face and bid his goodbyes.
I had also seen the same expression in my uncle's eyes when he landed back in Singapore from Shanghai. He had kissed his wife on her lips when he saw her.
I saw that same emotion again in my colleagues eyes when a bunch of us went out for dinner on Friday, together with his wife. The way he looked at her when we were silent was that like she was the best thing that ever happened to him.

I had thought that this kind of things only existed in the fairy tale romance novels that i read. But the more roughed up version still does exist in our everyday lives. I hope I don't sound like a jealous creature, because i am definitely not. This kind of true love really makes those infatuation teenagers go through like some totally insignificant thingy.

I swear i am going to find a man who looks at me in that same manner!! But for now, back to my romance novels ^^

RIP my grandma

My grandmother passed away at around 3pm today. She lived to a ripe old age of 80 and died from pancreatic cancer that spread through her whole body.

She was the one who brought me up through my 19+ years of life. She battled through many illnesses in her life, and dearly loved her grandchildren. Her health had took a downturn after my grandfather's death, but she stayed strong for 5 years after he left us.

This departure of my closest family member will always sadden me. How i wish it was just a false alarm, but i know i need to get back to reality. She had taught me so many things; and she will remain as my role model who i will look up to. I regret not spending even more time with her. I wished that she will still be here when i have my own family, but this wish will never be fulfilled.

I will be strong. RIP my beloved grandma.

Thanks for all my friends who stood by me n who expressed their condolences. Now I will standby my family members and help them tide through this. I will be fine.

Post Created Dec 29, 2011 10:23:34 PM

I have a boyfriend. Just tht he's very shy n only appears in my dreams. But i have yet to see what he looks like.

HAHAHA #joke

Post Created Nov 6, 2011 11:40:31 AM

I have been lonely the previous sem. I'm better now ^^ i guess thats why 2ne1's lonely stopped getting stuck in my head n i have lesser emo thoughts. I'm back to the old me!!!

Internship is still quite fun. Somehow i'm closer to my collegues than to my other NP interns. Maybe coz i went to client's place w yang zhen ^^

I alr received my interim evaluation. I know wad i'm lousy at. Particularly bad at communication. I feel i somewhat speak like a pai. N i like to talk loudly. Who to blame =.= Blame all the frens who impacted me too much? Hahahahaha. Nah i just dun have a strong character. Damn why didnt i pick up my frens good traits rather than the bad ones. I'm an easily influenced kinda girl :x

I gotta rmb i got 60/80 for interim! I love the part about my efficiency. Hehehehe. YAY

Post Created Aug 20, 2011 2:55:10 AM

I feel like i have missed out on a lot of fun in life. In this (almost) 19 years of my life, i still have lots i want to do but i havent done before. Theres so many things that i should spend my teenage years doing but i just dun seem to have anybody to go with me.

My birthday is coming. But before that is exams first. Anytime before exams = studying or homework. I guess we all dun have much life. I wanna parteh but i'm not really that kind of party girl rite? Haish. Limits because of my character...

I cant even properly list down what i want to do coz i know i dun have the time to do any...

Well for one i definitely need to get my driving license. Then i want to learn korean. But i also want to learn dancing... Conflicting minds and thoughts... N then theres another issue that i hope for but never for once has it been fulfilled...