"Everyone has their ideal type"

The 2 girls from another NDP group who were trying so hard to matchmake me and to find a boyfriend amongst all the army guys there... (Yes I am at the age to be married off so I should get a boyfriend first -_-)

So they kept pestering me for my ideal type. And they kept saying that everyone will have their own ideal type. Because an ideal type can just be a simple trait like specs or age group. And i insisted that I don't have an ideal type. Mainly because I wanna keep my options open. 

Here goes:

- Aged between +10 and -2

- Taller than me

- Tanned (no 白斩鸡）

- Size bigger than me (in order to not make me look fat)

- Intellectual (so usually wears specs)

- If possible, from a UG (especially a UG guy who loved his cca and participated in  events etc)

- Eye smile is a huge plus (^.^) (I realised from my preferences of idols, they mostly have a really cute eye smile)

Am I pushing it? HAHAHAHA. Given that I'm 163cm, and Singapore guys average at 165cm... And 170cm sometimes look short beside me. 

And it also seems my pool is quite small, so by right it shouldn't be that hard? Whatevs. Let's just keep waiting~ 

Teehee

The girl who is so far away from love

http://thoughtcatalog.com/ashley-jones/2016/04/to-the-girls-who-havent-found-love/

Absolutely spoken from my heart. 

Guys leave me wondering; am I so damn undateable that noone will want to see me as a possible life partner? Anything rather than just a normal friend? 

I know my limits, and I know I am far from being the ideal type of anyone. In fact, I might be suffering from some inferiority complex, where I know I will never be as good as anyone out there. 

New media makes people think too much about those perfect looking exteriors, with an equally matching charismatic charecter. But me, the ordinary me, the girl that slowly fades away in the minds of others, will never ever be that. I doubt anyone will take a second glance at me. I don't believe that there is anyone who will look at me and go: "hey is this the girl I have been looking for my whole life". Because everything you see about me will never meet any expectations of an ideal type of yours. 

Another reminder to myself: the single and available guys are dwindling at this age. So many have found their life partners, prospectives, hopefullys... While I hardly have any crushes, still dreaming and waiting for the right one to come. 

I don't ask for a lot. Just someone who is better than me; coz I know I am lacking in so much. I am not hoping for some handsome idol-like guy, not a six pack buff guy. I just need a normal dependable guy, someone who can give me the love and hugs that I have missed this past 24 years...

Where art thou, future boyfie?

If i have to go for matchmaking...

Imagining the day that I have to go for matchmaking sessions...

Random guy: so what's your hobby?

Me: ermmm i like to sleep and eat? 

Seriously how does this even sound like a hobby. Dealing with people fail. 

Hais. 

So what do I like to do? Stay at home and nua in front of the tv? Such an ideal date. 

Not-to-be

Loved and lost.

I don't regret. 

:)

Backview 100 points

I didn't realise that I am that kinda girl. Where the backview damn pretty but turn around look like ruhua. HAHAHAHAHA. 

And I didn't realise that my backview is pretty. Coz today erica was saying that KK and KL told her in sec 1, that I looked good from the back but not from the front. SO FUNNY OMG. Why did I not know that. Then I can work on my backview rite. 

Then I also suddenly remembered that I once got approached by the model agency or something, because they saw my back and thought I very chio or something?! But sorry to disappoint, when I turned around and gave the I am not interested look. Then the girl backed off. HAHAHA. 

OK my life is quite a joke. I have grown in love with my backview now <3 

Maybe thats the prettiest thing about me. That time Valerie took a photo of my backview with Eugene! And yeah it does look quite nice. I guess its just my hair. *hairflips* 

 #funtimes o(^_^)o

Resignee

Yet another one resigned. And its for less than 3 months. Is my department really that hard?! Whatever happened to perseverence. And loyalty. And faith?! 

Is the grass really greener on the other side? Somehow the grass patches i compare seems to be so much drier. Or I just selectively not want to compare myself to those areas which are really green. 

I just keep on trying to find the silver lining. Don't really understand why would people not even give chance to themselves to even try to find a silver lining. 

I wonder if it is because of the people. I doubt so? Since I talk crap with everyone and we have so many treats and I am delusional that my colleagues are the most fun. Although it didn't start out so fun for me in the beginning, but things do get better. And it indeed got so much better hehe.

I sometimes wonder if it is the curse of me... Ever since I joined, the people who resigned are just increasing so quickly. Before me, there was not even a single person who resigned. Then after I came in slowly one by one people start leaving, new joiners come and go too... And the curse of me is that whatever things I am involved in would have poor attendance. Or lack of people in general. Not that I didn't put in effort, but it is just my luck? I definitely did not directly cause people to leave. 

Desperate family

Yes my family is way more tense about me getting a boyfriend. Hello do I look like I chose the single life?? The single life chose me! 

Its not like I have a lot of choices right? I mean all the guys out there have millions of choices who are way better than me! And men being aesthetic animals will hardly see beyond how I look. Just take a look around the girls at level 31. High heels, short skirts, makeup gao gao. Confident, pretty, great bods, people who actually look like they have a life outside of work. Then there's me. Plain, pimple outbreaks all the time, too lazy to care about how I look and dress. And I am nowhere near being that high self-esteem sorority kinda girl, who is actually really competent behind that beautiful face. 

Well not that I am not confident. I think I can still manage to face the world. Just a tad on the extremely clumsy and slow side. I say the wrong things half the time. And I can't carry a proper conversation for shit. Unless it revolves around me being a klutz. And I foresee that this part of me will never die away, because I have been like this my whole life. 

There's only so much that can be changed right? Nice guys finish last, and I am pretty sure I am the girl version of a nice guy. Peaceout and cross my fingers, that Mr (doesn't even need to be right), will come!~ 

PS guys that I actually talk to are still on the countable on 1 hand side. Trying to think if it even exceeds 1 finger...