Short day 😟

I mean that I was feeling short today 😟 

Because last few days I have been hanging out with short friends and then suddenly some tallies come in and I am height-threatened. HAHAHA. Lame lame I know. 

Past few days I have been disturbing lijing until super shiok. Suan and suan her non stop. FUN SIA. Jialats. I think my favourite joke is to make fun of people's heights 😞 One day karma will come... I better start restraining myself... But still... That's the only way I disturb ppl mah! 🙊

Hi peeps HAPPY VDAY! 22nd year (coz it's not September yet) without a date! HUAT AH! But what is valentine's day mannnn. Who cares!~ 

(Yes I sound like a sorrowful glum person without a date on such a lovely day. But vday is just a day for people to spend more 🌚) So Vday is just an event for businesses to profit. Ohwells spenders are happy and profiters are happy. So it's a good day still right? 

Valentine's day aside, the highlight of the month should be CHINESE NEW YEAR! Comeon all the mahjong daidee pineapple tarts and bakkwa! HUAT AHHHHHH! I am so auspicious this year i keep saying HUAT AH. Actually I can't wait for new year coz I get to wear all my new clothes. Hahahaha. Then I can have a new wardrobe change! I'm so bored of repeating the same clothes the last few months... 

I look forward to meeting Elites and Felkuamweiling! SOON SOON. Meetups are crazy fun with lots of laughter! Not bad at all right. For a bunch of friends who met online. And Felise, Kuam and Kenneth's birthdays are all in February. 

New realisation of the month: I have been hanging out with a lot of Pisces (near pisces also counted) for the whole February. Yes Pisces are crazy people who can manage to talk to anyone. So technically there will never be a moment of peace with Pisces around... And I treat every single one of them differently. Talk about fairness 😂 But their love stories are all so similar I can't help but laugh. 

Random out of topic craziness HAHA. 

PS My english is just going from bad to worse. The amount of hokkien and singlish which I am starting to use are totally astonishing. NEED. TO. CUT. DOWN. ON. SINGLISH. Or my report writings and drafting of emails will definitely suffer. Already trying so hard not to be influenced by all the F words and hokkien vulgarities seen in Elites 🙈

I just adapt too quickly to my surroundings HAHAHA. 

The end of 2014

Yesterday was the end of 2014, and now we embrace the start of 2015. Last year has been a good year; I have learnt a lot of things and accomplished so many things. 

2014: I "slept" my way to first class honours, found a job and gained new responsibilities, took on jobs which I hardly have any background in, made new friends online and from my workplace, met up with old friends whom I haven't seen in years, learnt to be less fearful and more vocal to get what I want, first time going to pubs and Zouk, first time trying so many sorts of alcohol... 

I had also learnt from the mistakes of others: online relationships never last. So MTV catfish is true. Love relationships can hardly happen online. These online relationships just lack that real human touch. Even though the initial stages were so sweet, so lovely, but it all eventually wears off. After all, you don't know each other that well, having just met their avatar. 

Love relationships might not last, but friendships will. I'm glad to have found a friend in the youngsters online, they all taught me so many things I will never have learnt in my offline world. Yes, sometimes they just have so many flaws which hides their merits, but their innocence and their good will really outshine everything else. I learnt from them how to communicate, how to love, how to get over a heartbreak, how to be brave. Somehow these are things my real friends don't share with me, so I am glad to have met them. 

I have discovered a lot more of myself this year. I found back my love to disturb people which i thought was lost forever after I graduated from Sec 4. I realised how kaypo I am about everything and anything, and how much I just love listening to stories and gossip. I learnt to stop overthinking about the thousand and one possibilities which never will happen. I started to treat guys like normal friends; and not someone whom I will be potentially interested in. (My brain is so screwed, and its because of those overthinking) I also know I love to show-off, but now i won't feel like it was done at the expense of others. I enjoyed busying myself with friends and studies, even if it meant getting lesser sleep on a weekday. I now know that if you don't voice your opinion, you will never get what you want. And if you don't make the first step, noone else might. 

Thank you 2014 for being so nice and meaningful to me. I hope 2015 will be even better, with more new experiences, luck and Mr Right to come along :) 

Middleman

YAH HAI I'M BACK TO THE JOB I DO BEST. BEING A MIDDLEMAN. BETWEEN A BOY AND A GIRL. N THIS IS WHAT U CALL BEING RIGHT SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF A RELATIONSHIP 😂

Kaiseng and kuam. Aka KAIKUAM. My online friends turned real life friends. My crazy friends. And i am positive they like each other. And both are my good friends. And so i am standing in the middle, yet again. HAHAHAHA. 

I love being a middleman. I love being a lightbulb. I like being surrounded by people in love, since i don't get the love myself. But i have the most bestest awesomest love from all my girlfriends 🌹 I know these girls will never betray me 😘

Ok back to kaikuam. Kuam feels sad if kai doesnt pei her. But kai doesnt want a relationship. Life is complicated. N now i shall bridge between what has not been communicated across 😂 And to find out if theres a way around kai's heart to make him accept kuam. N then all's well ends well. 

I think i love to kaypo a little bit too much HAHAHAHA. Oh well, always put what u do best to good use rite? 😏

Thanks everyone

Here's a flower 🌹 for everyone in my life. Thanks everyone, whether i know u or u know me, for coming into my life. Thanks for the endless entertainment and laughter. #feelingloved #istillhavenoboyfriend #butlifeisstillgood #loveyall 😍 

AND YEAH I'M BACK TO SAY HOW WONDERFUL LOVE AND LIFE IS HAHAHAHAHA. I LIVE OFF THE EMOTIONS OF OTHERS. I GO THROUGH THEIR ROLLERCOASTER EMOTIONS EVEN IF IT DOESNT AFFECT ME. MYGAWD I CANT EVEN TELL IF THIS IS A GIFTED TALENT A NOT 😂

but i am still the insensitive blurr soul sometimes. Who does certain wrong things like agitating ppl and rubbing salt to the wound etc. But at the end of the day, it will all be for the better (hopefully)😘 

I LOVE YOU ALL U CRAZY PEOPLE WHOM I KNOW! 😍😘

My last weekend holiday-ing

So my last weekend of holidays is approaching soon... Coz i'm starting work on Monday! Egg-cited but somehow sad that this marks the end of my holidays... Which is also the last ever holiday I will have in my life T_T

I hope I can adapt well to the environment, stay in a job for that long without losing interest. Seriously idk when I will ever lose interest in anything... Although I know I definitely can persevere through anything, but I have never worked for a period of more than 9 months and I get bored really easily... :/ 

At least 1 thing I know for sure is that my colleagues are nice and friendly. I guess this would make up for any inadequacies in the job~ 

I am just lucky to even get the job and its all thanks to Sook Yee 😍 HEAPS OF THANK YOU TO MY EX-COLLEAGUE FOR LOVING ME SO MUCH AS AN INTERN. N for putting in all the good words such that I became hired. I can't be anymore grateful to have found such a good and attractive job~ 

The bad thing about a job: I can't play Dance Up as much anymore T-T 

I will miss my one and only love Kuam a lot... As well as all my lovely lil guildies Kris, Fel, Jia, all of them. I will miss bullying Rey kor and Uncle Adam! My position as team matters have really made me so close with the members~ Le sigh why are good memories often so short... 

But seriously at age 22 why am I still taking an online game so seriously? Oh well there are age 23 ppl in there, n Rey is 1 such person who is embarrassed to admit he's playing the game in real life 🙊 HAHAHA the interesting things about life 😏 

Don't let me get started on how there's a reason behind everything... An alarming trend which I have spotted in the game. People in there are plagued with troubles. There are so many issues in real life that they can't handle. Backstabbing, betrayal, bullying, the oh-so-common heartbreak, the broken family, etc. The list is endless. And these are the people who enter the game to be lost in virtual reality. To find a new replacement for someone they lost. To make friends who seem to never let them down. 

And there's people like me and Kuam, who wishes there is peace in the humankind. Who tries to dissuade people from getting into a fight. Who tries to let them see its meaningless to go to war with someone you don't actually know. Yes the reality out there is cruel, but you don't need to start bringing your gangs online right. 

That's why game developers always earn so much. Precisely coz of the ppl who tries to find themself through the game, splurging on virtual items, relationships, and social interactions. 

And this does make me feel like becoming a counsellor so I can help those problem teens... A virtual counsellor does sound like a good thing in all games uh. ^^

Split personality

Hanging out with all the younger ones have literally made me their age 😂

My sarcasm and suan-ing skills have improved by leaps and bounds, be it for NDP or in Dance Up. Idk why but i have very suddenly let go of a lot of things that once mattered a lot to me. 

I no longer feel awkward to talk about or even suan others about certain stuff ie relationships. Perhaps the major factor that made me put down this burden is coz of my sis. 

I feel like i am back in sec 4, with the juniors calling ahma. Those were the days i really connected on a different level. I'm feeling it again now during NDP, where i am usually the oldest. And when playing dance up too, coz that game is totally plagued with xmm and xdd of all varying ages and backgrounds... 

Conclusion: i don't belong to the 22 age group, and i might be a gemini since i have 2 faces 😂 Hyper crazy blurr sotong versus serious strict naggy overachiever

3 is a good number

3 is the number for a third wheel

3 is the starting number for a group

3 is also the awesome 3rd year i have been volunteering as usher for NDP!

Woots!~ in a sense 3 does describe me this year 😂 

I love my NDP group! Its the best group i have ever had in my 3 years! Or perhaps i have a slightly more different and crazier attitude coz i have let go of a lot of things (aka stereotypes). Well i'm a carefree biatch now! (Y) 

Complain Club 2, although most of you are younger than me, but all of your attitudes are really the top notch and i'm looking forward to learning more from all of you! Lookin forward to Saturdays now!

The before and after duty shot~ that i couldn't manage to upload on insta coz of cropping issues and my short term memory (still struggling real hard to remember everyone's names...)